G.B.
I'd like to suggest that you find a local Grandparents Raising Grandchildren group to attend. Many grandparents are doing the same thing as you are and these new friends can be a resource to support you.
My grandson is on Ritalin and it is like night and day. He's one of the lucky ones that it works like this. He has no side effects other than lack of appetite during the day. It does NOT build up in his body, when it wears off it's gone. There is no residual med in his system.
He also takes Depakote for his mood swings and violent outbursts. I don't agree with the doc on this one but when he is off it or misses it a few days I can see what our life would be like without it.
If you don't want her on meds then don't do it. If you don't agree with the doc then visit with the pharmacist about the different options and what might do the same thing.
I would not want to live in hell so we choose to medicate a medical biological issue. ADHD is not something that will go away, that can be taught out of a child. Their brain doesn't work right. They don't have the ability to just tell their brain to do this or do that.
They do the best they can and often don't understand why they make bad coices. They have no impulse control. This is not something punishment fixes, spanking can't fix it, just choosing to not do it does not work. They can't control all those impulses and stuff bouncing around in their brain. They're kids.
So there is no way I would not choose to medicate a child with ADHD. That would be like saying I don't think a child with diabetes needs meds. They can just not have high blood sugar.
Things kids have no control over have to be medicated. You'll need to put her on something. If you choose a different med that's okay if she does well on it. If she doesn't then you have to try another med.
Sometimes kids have to try 10 different meds before they get on the one that doesn't make them crazy. It's a trial and error kind of thing.
She has to be on some kind of meds. Just keep trying.
In our Grandparents group we have about 20 families that come each month to activities and meetings. Nearly all of these families have several grand kids on meds. They've all went through this. We're one of the few that have only tried one med and it worked.
It's a great source of comfort to me to know others are going through what I'm going through and have found ways to make it work. Finding a grandparents group will be a great resource for your family.