Hi L.,
I struggled with it too. It started the day after I delivered my daughter. Talk to your MD about this, they can make recommendations. It is natural to feel this way the first few weeks. I know I wasn't alone. So many of my girlfriends struggled with PPD. You may start feeling better in a couple of weeks or so once you figure out a routine. Having a newborn throws off all the dynamics of a household. There is a little one who needs all your love and attention and it can be overwhelming. I felt very overwhelmed. I finally started going to a therapist and she put things in perspective for me. I recommended therapy to a girlfriend who had the same issues when she became pregnant with her 2nd baby and it really helped her. At the very least try to speak to a therapist, you could take the baby with you, I know my therapist didn't mind at all. It was worth it! Be good to yourself. Nap when the baby naps and don't worry about housework, try something like "Entrees to Go" for easy meals you don't have to cook, get out with the baby....the library has storytime where you could go to get out of the house and meet other Moms who will willingly share their stories. Go to the playground at the mall. Distractions are always good for the soul and the mind. I walked every morning with my little one. You can download some reading material (motivational) and put it on your Ipod (listen while you walk). Excercise and a good diet will help your body release endorphins, sunshine is also a mood booster. You could join a Mommy group for added support. Also, I know that Zenergy Yoga in Scottsdale has baby & me yoga classes. My Gym also offers free classes for little newborns. (Great way to get out and socialize free!) Go to the Zoo, go to the Botanical Gardens, the Park, the McCormick Stillman train park, etc. now that the weather is nice. Your little one may not know what's going on but you can talk to her, tell her what you see, the sound of your voice will be soothing and the bonding is priceless. I have also heard Stroller Strides is fun. Support is wonderful and these are great ways to meet new Moms and make friends. Once you hear their stories, which they are more than happy to share with you, you will see that we all struggle one way or another. Motherhood is tough but the rewards you reap daily are worth it. I know how hard it is to adjust but think of this time as a temporary schedule. Babies grow very fast and soon it will become easier. Whenever you feel overwhelmed or sad, tell yourself it's okay to feel this way and don't be hard on yourself remember this is a new experience. Comfort yourself. Tell yourself positive things.
Here's a little quote from a book I read whenever I need inspiration and motivation. From the book "SHE" -She was kind, loving and patient with herself-Celebrate her tenderness. -She added so much beauty to being human-Celebrate her presence.-She decided to enjoy more and endure less. -Celebrate her choices.-She colored her thoughts with only the brightest hues.-Celebrate her optimism.-She ran ahead where there were no paths. Celebrate her bravery-
Just a few. :) I'll say a prayer for you.