You need to take it. It's just not necessary for you to suffer so. I started Zoloft 2.5 months ago and I am so glad I did.
I too am nursing (8 month old) and I heavily weighed the decision to start
or not start...... I felt guilty about taking it as I'm guessig you do too. But, the doctors I've spoken with have all said that it is safe. I know there are no guarantees but I decided to listen to the medical community on this one.
I can not begin to tell you how much better I feel. My anxiety has been greatly reduced and I am much happier in general. I feel enthusiastic about things and am so much more engaged with my kids. I am such a better mother, wife, friend now.....
Give yourself a break. Take it. Feel better. You don't have to live with anxiety. People don't get that anxiety and depression are chemical.... You deserve to be treated ..... Just like a woman with any other illness deserves to be treated.
My OB recommended I take the pill after nursing at night so that most of it would be metabolizes by the morning..... Or pick your biggest non-nursing window and take it then.
It takes 4 weeks to really kick in fully. When and if you do start, tell a few
close people around you so they can also help you gauge whether or not it is working.
I think you can have it all..... You can feel better and keep nursing. Listen to experts. People tend to have a lot of personal opinions on this stuff that aren't based in research.
Good luck and I really hope you feel better.