Hi Kate,
I just had my first mammogram 6 months ago and I, too, was petrified. In fact, I worked myself up so much that I fainted in the middle of the procedure. That wasn't fun. So start to relax yourself now as much as you can. It's really not bad. It turns out, I actually didn't find it to be that uncomfortable at all. I let the technician know I was nervous, and she put these foamy, squishy pads on the plates that compress your tissue for the imaging. It actually didn't hurt at all. I was really pleasantly surprised. Then I did get a call to come back in for more mammogram images. As you mentioned it was the routine case that they didn't have any prior images to compare to, so they wanted to be very thorough. Of course, I was still worried. But again, even with them taking more images, it didn't hurt at all. That day they decided to also look closer at something with an ultrasound, so I waited around to have them do that, too (worry, worry). The ultrasound I thought was more uncomfortable than the mammogram (totally surprised me!) because they were "digging" around for a spot deep down in the middle somewhere. And both the technician AND the radiologist did separate attempts at "digging." But for that, I did hear from them right then that they didn't find anything. And then they suggested that I come back in 6 months to have another mammogram because they wanted to make sure nothing changed and confirm that my baseline was really a baseline. So I just did that one a few weeks ago. Now that I know it doesn't hurt, and that despite their multiple requests to do additional tests it really doesn't mean you're sick, I feel a lot better about going. It's just another checkup. Keep telling yourself that -- it's just another checkup. Even with multiple add-on tests, it's STILL just another checkup. And relax as much as you can. It's really nowhere near as bad as I'd created it to be in my head :o) Oh, and my only other advice would be to leave yourself a lot of time for your visits, in case they want to do an ultrasound, too. I believe I was there for about 2 hours doing all those tests, whereas I expected to be in and out in about an hour.
Best wishes, and hang in there,
A.