C.N.
There's nothing wrong with you and you're not selfish. It happens. I have a 10 month old too - born 8/23/06. I went back to work in March when he was 6 months and I lost my milk within a few weeks. I tried to pump at work but I'm not in the office too much (usually I'm in the field as I am a contractor and I drive to worksites). I was upset too and I thought I was the worst mom ever. My mom, however, convinced me that at least I breastfed for 6 months and stayed home as long as I could. Sure it would have been nice to say home until..... you can fill that in with anything you want, but in the end your income providing for shelter, medical visits etc. is just as important. From one working mom to another... if the milk has diminished, put your time spent pumping and worrying into something else for the baby. For me it's playtime when my son gets up... I go into work after we've had that extra special time in the morning to play and read books or just cuddle in bed. My son's been getting up earlier -- I think b/c of the Summer weather so at 5 or 5:30am I am ready to play.... that means I go to bed earlier. He goes down by 8 and I follow shortly after - usually by 9. Good Luck and I'm sure you've heard.. worrying over not having enough milk only makes it harder to let down... try to relax and remember she'll be taking in more solids soon and the breastmilk will only be a suplement.