T.S.
This is tough. As a mom, we want to be with our babies, but, relity is that we have bills to pay. When you find a job, be excited, let your baby see your excitement, let him know that this is going to be best for your family. Put your game face on - be happy. Then, when you are alone in your car, then you can cry. Our children look to us - if we are o.k. then they are o.k.
If you are scared, they are scared.
When things get better for your husband - stay home again, right now you have to do what you need to for your family.
Good luck. Ive been there - its hard but it will be fine.... I promise : )
T.