C.S.
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I feel the same way, there was no way I was going to work fulltime after my kids were born. It was a decision that I made, and my husband agreed with, and we make it work. I dont drive a new car. We rent. We do without some luxuries, (alcohol, movies, eating out, etc) but its worth it to be with my kids all day.
I was working part-time in the early mornings. And then I started working over nights on the weekends. It wasnt easy, but we needed a little extra money. Now, we are okay, and I dont have to work, right now.
I also did babysitting in my home. Its a LOT of work to do that. I have two kids of my own and I'm frantic. When I added two more, even though they were older, I nearly lost my mind. But, other moms I know do it, and have no problem.
The way I see it, is that my kids are only small once. And when they are 5 and start school, I'll be able to go back to work (part-time lol) and we'll get a house, get nicer cars and begin to live a little better. But, for now my priority is with my kids and doing what is best for them. And that is to have their mom 100%.
I hope you can find a way to make it work for you!! :)