2010 was such an amazing and educational year for me full of changes: I got my dream job that then crashed and burned, I moved to a new townhouse, I got married, after some job interviews that I really wanted and after some interviews I really hated and being unemployed for 6 months I had a career breakdown, and out of that breakdown (and therapy) could really identify some of the things I want with my life. So rather then resolutions, I feel like I know what is really important to me going into 2011:
- I want to find a new job with balance. My dream job was amazing, but I gave up so much (friends, social events, sleep, things I enjoy, and family time). I need something in that field that isn't demanding 100% of my time.
- I want to have kids. Several months ago my husband and I decided to start trying. Even though the situation isn't perfect and we have some debt, we rent, our cars are slowly dying, I'm still unemployed, we decided that waiting for the "perfect time" would be waiting way too long. At times scared at the idea of being a mom, but I'm so excited at the same time. I really hope 2011 brings me this great gift.
- I want to spend time fixing things that annoy me. The kitchen pots/pans cabinet that spilled onto the floor whenever I opened it, drove me insane, and the $13 to buy a shelf for it makes me so happy whenever I open it now. I think while I have this 'down time' using it to straighten things out, organized and get the house in order will really bring me peace. This includes: continuing to clean out the garage, helping get the man room organized, finding solutions for my office when my office *hopefully* becomes a nursery (this will require some new furniture, reorganizing a bit etc), finding better solutions for laundry and organizing our closet, and adding touches of color to the house to make it a bit more like a home.
- I want to spend more time with friends, and letting them know how much I value them. I really enjoyed the holiday season this year. A year ago, I was so overwhelmed with my dream job, that I threw presents at folks and was back to work. This year I got to spend time wrapping, baking, shopping for presents I thought people would really enjoy, looking at lights, decorating, going to parties - all things I love. What it's reminded me is that it's really important for me to show people how much they mean to me, and that's something I really want to make a priority in the upcoming year.
- I want to find and dedicate myself to the causes/organizations that I really love. This year has also been a time for me to rededicate myself to the organizations and groups that mean a lot to me, and have found new ones that really value my opinions. I want to remind myself I love doing these things, even when they annoy me at times, and put my whole heart into them because to me it's important to give back and be a valuable member of the community.
- I want to continue to be a good wife to my wonderful husband. This week, being sick, he has been so amazing to try (try being the operative word) to keep the house pulled together, but more so take care of me. I need to continually show him how much I appreciate his efforts. I want to make sure he and I continue our date nights, and continue our strong communication bond, particularly as we're TTC.
I think that this post is probably too long, but I've been thinking about it all day. What I hope and want in 2011. Best wishes to you all, and thank you for letting me share!