You're lonely and miss your family. He's happy to be living somewhere else and working, at least a little bit. You have to have funds to go home every couple of months. It's 16 hours to drive from Houston to Miami, Houston to Orlando is 13, 7 to Pensacola. Depending on what part of Florida it's not more than a day trip to home. You could take a plane and build up points or something. There are ways you can go home to visit more often. Have them come visit you too. One plus is that a house would have more rooms for guests.
Ask him to sit down and work out the budget so you can see how you can afford a house.
In this budget ask him:
How will he pay someone to care for the yard and repairs, he's a truck driver and won't be home all the time.
Apartment rent and utilities are about half of what a house cost, show you how that's going to be paid.
There are more questions but my point is that you and he need to communicate and he needs to know how your heart is breaking for missing home.
But bottom line.
I am a City girl through and through, to the core. I moved from a university town, that I thought of it as a small quaint town, to a town that is less than half of the university town. Okay, I got used to that but still, lived in town. With neighbors and stores and sounds and safety.
I moved to the country with my husband because his father is older and isn't going to live forever. We live here on family land. There are no tornado sirens, my weather radio picks up alarms way before or after a storm. The TV goes out if there is wind, rain, snow, ice, or anything else that can destroy the satellite signal. We live far enough out of town that it's almost like town is a different climate zone. There have been times when town schools were shut down for ice or snow but we have dry grass here and our roads are normal.
I have a storm cellar but it's out in a field so that no debris should fall on it if a tornado or strong winds destroy our house. I'm the ONLY one that goes to the shelter. Everyone else thinks I'm neurotic for even having a storm cellar. I think they're sort of living on the edge.
I cried myself to sleep every night for 6 months after we moved out here. I go to town just about every day thought now and it helps a lot. I realized it's not really that far to civilization and people.
I also went to work, volunteer a lot too. I do better when I'm around people and active with my mind and use my skills. It's something you need to do too. Even if it's just a couple of hours per day at the local library. You'll be around people and your mind will find refuge in it.
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