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J., I can't say I've been in your shoes. I do know that you didn't ask for this circumstance with your husband, but I do think that there will be light at the end of the tunnel for you. It's just hard to see it now.
I agree with the other ladies to seek out a church. Try several before picking one. Try not to go to one that is judgmental about divorce. That wouldn't help you at all. Try to find one where people are warm and friendly. If they have Sunday School, that might be a place to meet people.
Seek out women friends as well. You don't need any male friends at this point. You might end up feeling more for them than you should, and you don't need that in your life right now.
Hoping so much that you can get through the holidays. I'm glad your son gives you hugs and kisses. That's wonderful.
Hugs,
Dawn