Hey mama! Wow girl, it sounds like you need a break, a hug, a hot bath and day off!!:) Oh man I really hate those days when all seems to come crashing down and you just wonder why in the world you signed on for this. I bet you that virtually all the mamas on this board have felt the way you do today, you will get lots of love! Plus you are raising a child with special needs and it is extremely demanding. There is only so much of you to go around and it just sounds like you are tapped out. First of all, just breathe. I know you are super busy but try to just take a minute and breathe, and cry if you want, it's ok. It sounds like last week was really rough and you are still dealing with that. I am guessing that your six year old will be back in school next week, so that should help a bit. My husband and I just started this thing where I am going to take one Saturday a month out and he is going to be with our son. I am really looking forward to that and I think it will be good for me mentally! Maybe talk with your husband about some time you could have to yourself to get with friends or whatever you like to do. If he isn't very understanding, don't give up, just keep on talking it out! Husbands don't live our lives and so it may take a little work to really help him get how you feel. I wish you all the best today and I hope things look up for you asap! Just remember that this too shall pass and that you love your kids more than life itself, it may sound simple but it helps me when I get down. Then think of some creative ways to get out of that house and get your man on board!!! Hang in there, I am sending you a great big HUG!