oh my. i handle myself in exactly the opposite fashion. if i boot-camped myself through hard workouts, i'd never go back. and when my old knees start to bother me, i slow down. walking is perfectly acceptable. the only response i don't allow myself to give is 'i'll do nothing.'
a good workout for ME is when i finish up feeling terrific and looking forward to the next day's. if i'm counting down the minutes til i'm done with pep talks and prayers to get me through, i'll have a much harder time going back to it.
i never know til i'm out there what a run will be. sometimes i feel great heading out the door, but i never hit a good stride. sometimes i plan a 10 mile run but only get 6 because it's just not there.
but i still get 6 miles.
almost invariably, if i'm having a bad start i can babytalk myself through. 'it's okay, S.. if it still sucks after a mile, you turn around. or walk. slow down, there, old girl! just keep shuffling!' and i almost never end up giving up early.
but sometimes i do. and i always can. the fact that i know i'll let myself do it without beating myself up paradoxically encourages me to keep going.
i also know that i'll spend the first 1-3 miles whining incessantly, so while i'm moaning, part of me is also smiling tolerantly. long runs are almost easier, because once i get past the tsunami of excuses and complaints, i quit thinking about it altogether and just go, my mind free to think Deep Thoughts.
but my workout goals, whether it's weights or yoga or running, is always to enjoy it, push myself appropriately, and finish feeling great. because i always have to come back to it the next day.
ETA oh yeah, your question! so far one of my best moments was crossing the finish line of my first half marathon. i was exhausted, but felt like such a boss!
khairete
S.
ps new ETA, for CAE and the other speedy gonzaleses out there, i think 11.33 is INSANELY fast! that's my best 5K speed, not one i could even begin to maintain overa long distance. for long runs i allow myself anything under 15 minute miles. okay, for short runs i do too<G>, although i do usually go a bit faster with a couple of sprints for short runs. will you get faster results if you push yourself and get speedy? i'm sure you will. but please don't get TOO hung up on times! it doesn't really matter how quickly you get across the finish line. it matters a) that you do it and b) that you keep on doing it. tortoises rule!