I Think I Have PPD...emotional Just All over the Place. Feeling Crazy.

Do not be ashamed--so many of us need help!! I used the hotline from ENH (now Northwestern) and I'm so glad I did. I just wish I did it sooner. I just let my anxiety build and it made me feel worse and closed in. We have come so far in a society that lets us talk about this stuff--and get the help we need. I also finally went on antidepressants, after fighting that for over a year. I wish I had followed my midwife's advice on that sooner. I finally feel better, and so do those around me.
Be well. Know that you are loved and needed. Call NOW.

Try the hotline. Just go ahead and call. That's what they're for! Then call your dr. He or she may be able to get you into a therapy group or give you some meds that will be safe and help you. Even if you're embarrassed or stressed: Get help! Your family only cares that you are ok!

I do recommend that you speak to your doctor or call the ppd hotline to get connected to a counselor.
It may not be PPD, but it could. If could be another form of depression. It could just be that you are stressed out because you are unhappy with you life.

Whatever it is, I think your post shows that you are at the end of your coping skills and want to get help.
Good luck!

I agree with the statement below - it's not PPD, most likely just life and the challenges of it. I would call a counselor and that will help you sort through it all. It's overwhelming and you are feeling like so many others have. Much of it is "natural" but overwhelming (did I say that already)???? The counselor can help you sort it out and work on the things that are needed your attention to make you happy one at a time.

I am so sorry. You sound so sad. It sounds like things feel like they are spiraling out of control in all areas. For your son if not yourself, ask for help. Call a hotline and also schedule an appointment with your OB or family doctor today. They will be able to refer you to a therapist or perhaps try medication. Depression is a clinical illness that is no different from any other sickness. There is no reason to be prideful or embarrassed. If you had cancer you wouldn't refuse help. Call today. Think of it as the first step toward a happier life for you and your son. Good luck, and come back here to vent any time.

Holy moly... Your situation sounds so much like what I dealt with in my 1st marriage. I didn't want to divorce either, but I'm going to tell you now that only one person working on saving the marriage will NOT save it. It took me 5yrs to get out. Being remarried... I am SO HAPPY now. I am not the person I was with my ex. My ex changed who I was.

Sometimes when people are together, they don't realize they aren't themselves with that other person.

Ask him why he wouldn't want to work on the marriage by seeing a counselor. You can talk to your OB about the PPD. But there are deeper issues than just PPD. I also bluntly asked my ex one day, "What do you expect from me as your wife? I want details on what you want from me."
He didn't have an answer. Because what was he going to say? "I want you to take care of the house, inside and out, cook for me, take care of our daughter, work and make as much money as I do, let me play my computer games from the time I get home from work until I'm ready for you to give yourself to me at 11pm, even though I know you get up far earlier than me, and do everything I ask." Um... No. He would feel guilty for telling the truth... So he had no answer.

If you have any questions... FEEL FREE to PM me.

Seek help! There's nothing to be ashamed of, and PPD can become dangerous if left untreated. It will only get worse. Having a baby can really wreak havoc on our emotions which then affects our lives. emotions, relationships, jobs etc. It is hard to admit and face that you need help, but isnt this hard? Arent you miserable? I went through this too, and when I finally got help I felt soooo much better, and was a better wife and mother! Be strong and know you are not alone. And asking for help is a braver thing to do then not.

Antoinetee please consider using an antianxiety/antidepressant medication to help you get over the hump until you can use counseling to resolve emotional issues. You need to be the healthiest mom you can be for your son, and if medication is what you need please talk to your doctor. I was always against using meds until I had my son and had severe post partum issues. My doctor and my family convinced me that it was the right thing to do for my son, and they were right. I was on Zoloft for less than a year, and it that time gained tools for dealing with my issues without medication. I am sorry you are going through all of this, and I hope things get better for you.

You need help; don't ignore your PPD. I would also go to marriage counseling with your husband. The dynamics of a couple changes once you have kids & it's really hard to adjust, especially if you are also suffering from PPD. Men feel ignored & unloved when a baby comes & women feel resentful & tired. All couples go through this adjustment period, so it's not uncommon to go for couples counceling. Seek help now; there is no shame in getting help for you & your family.

I realy think you should make an appointment with your OB to talk about PPD. I am on a low dose of Zoloft after my 2nd child (15 months). I was constantly irritated or mad and I felt a little crazy. After 4 weeks of being on it I felt 100% better and back to my pre-baby self. I definitely think Divorce is not the answer. I would try to get checked out medically and then maybe some counseling. Your husband may be depressed as well- men generally don't seek out help.