T.M.
I think many of your feelings are normal for a stay-at-home parent so just take it day by day and do the best you can.
For whatever it is worth, my husband has been a stay-at-home dad for almost nine years and we have four kids (ages 8, 6, 5 and 4). At one point, we had three kids in diapers! Anyway, my husband does everything you do at home and he never gets a night without kids or almost never any relief from extended family members (because they live too far away).
P.S. I think my husband has a much more difficult job than I do.