Dear V.,
You are still a Mom and this is one of the hardest parts of being a Mom. You can stay in her life, but you can't see her everyday - maybe you can talk to her and email her often, and send little things in the mail that make her life a bit better - but,
everyday momming is out now. She may come back, you know. This is the era of the swinging door children - out and in. Just be glad that she is alive.
I lost my son 3 years ago, and many families are losing their adult children in Iraq - it is hard to be a living breathing, honest to goodness feeling and loving human being. The goodness of life is that we had these experiences and that we, ourselves, were even born ! Just think of the odds of that happening, and it did happen to US !! I finally had to agree to hurt and to be so happy that I got to be his Mother.
You don't have to listen to other people, just be yourself and listen to God. He will guide you to a meaningful life .....as they say nowadays....to find your voice in this world. Just be patient -do you fingernails. I finally have been taking better care of myself personally, and doing things that I want to do - I am thinking seriously about taking piano lessons, not to fill up the hours, but to do something I have always wanted to do.
You will find a lot of comfort in your girlfriends. My girlfriends are in their 70's, 80's and even their 90's now, and they are just precious and a source of wisdom for me. I do not talk to them about my worries, but I listen to them, and how they take the slings and arrows of their lives. When you get older you take things a little differently - I guess you still hurt a lot for what is happening to your friends, children, country, but you are less judgemental and that, my dear, is a big burden that I am happy to have given up.
....and about someone not liking your advice - that is just normal. Lots of times when someone disagrees with you, that means that you have hit a nerve and that they will be thinking of what you said for a long time, and if it fits with their lives, they accept it as wise, and probably pass it on to others. So don't pay attention to that, I know - it is shocking and hurtful - but you have done the best you could and have reached out to another human being in sincere caring. So you did nothing wrong, and it may turn out to be better than you could possibly know. So hang in there.
One Mommie just sort didn't like what I wrote last week too. Friends? C. N.